This season, I feel a boldness I can’t explain. A boldness that comes so strongly from my Savior. To live and love in all the ways he did. How many times was he mocked, scoffed at, beaten down, etc. How many sought to destroy his name?
That same boldness our father in heaven gave our Savior to overcome all the enemy sent to destroy God’s son, is the same boldness I have been given.
Do I care how I look? Do I care what will be said? Do I care how many will try and salt my name?!
No, because I am hidden in Christ. Safe from all schemes and plans of the enemy. All the enemy came to steal, kill, and destroy is being returned to me DOUBLE.
I now know why he tried so hard to make me feel my life has never been worth living. I now know why he has come after my mind so much, because He knew once I got to this point, it was game over for him. He no longer could win me over. He no longer had any legal right. The contracts I entered into are now null and void. The contract, the assignment, the plan, are all returned back to the sender and I am covered in the blood of Jesus. It all makes sense.
The enemy came after me as Mother, a Wife, a friend, and daughter, because he knew who I was destined to become in Him. Who God has been calling me to be my entire life.
Pure. Bold. Humble. Meek in spirit. Passionate. Forgiving. Determined. Confident. Unshakable. A woman who will die to her flesh daily.
Nothing can stand against the power of our God. He goes before us. He shines in the shadows and wins every battle.
I have to die to flesh and cardinal thinking, daily. Just last week temptation overcame like the thirst you have after a long run in the hot sun. I craved it. I could taste it in my mouth. The enemy knew, but God. God had bigger plans. So I buried it, rebuked it, and sent it back to its sender. A scripture I continue to be pulled to this season is John 15:7
Old Jaeden would go straight to the last part of that verse. Ask whatever you wish and it will be given. Sounds awesome right? Ask for it and it will be given. However, that’s not the focus of this verse. Go to the beginning, read again.. He says “If you remain in me and my words remain in you.” This means, Do your part! We must exercise our faith in him. We must live according to our commandments, die to our flesh, and choose Jesus each and every time. Does this mean he could literally restore sight to a blind man, absolutely. Does it mean he could answer your prayers about being rich, absolutely. However what if he said to the blind man, “Yes, I could restore your sight, but instead I will give you such a clear/sharp 50/50 vision OF ME. The understanding of who I am, and how you can bring vision to those who are spiritually blind! So yes, he could restore your vision, but what if he gives you the tools to restore the spiritually blind instead.
Instead of making you rich, what if He showed you that your truest fortune is in nurturing your testimony in Him and your family. Nothing else matters. In a world focused on materialism and the “always wanting more,” mindset, Jesus is trying to tell us and has forever, that He needs to be enough for us and that is it. Before I knew Him and I mean truly surrendered it all to him, I could never be happy with what I had. I always needed more. Wanted more. Chased after the next best thing. It was like a high an addict chases after finding one hit was no longer enough… One hit floods your mind, and drowns you from the spirit. It always leads to the craving of a higher high.
I once was the addict, craving the next hit, the higher high. I was chasing two things. 1) The euphoria, the pleasure, the thrill. And 2) I wanted to numb how much I truly hated who I was. I wanted to separate from the lies the enemy continued to pour into my mind. That I was never good enough, and would never be good enough. I wanted to drown out the demons that screamed in mind telling me my Husband and Daughter would be better off I left them. I wanted to run so far away. I was internally screaming, “Please find me. I’m right here. I’m terrified.” It seemed the more I raised my voice and screamed for Jesus to find me, the more the enemy surrounded me. I was terrified. Finally, I saw his light and I screamed for my Father.
Like a little girl who made the jacket in her closet grow into a massive monster in her mind, I screamed for my Daddy. The second I did, he came busting through my bedroom door and held me as I wept in his arms. I didn’t have to tell him I was scared. He knew. I felt a strength only that comes from God to go and face the monster in my closet. He could have easily walked up and casted out what was in my closet, but he said to me. “You are greater than that enemy. You are stronger than the enemy because You were given the authority by me.”
The day I walked up to my closet (mirror) I faced it. With the authority given to me by my Savior Jesus Christ. I told the enemy he no longer had control over me. He no longer had the legal right in my life. He no longer determined the Wife, Mother, and daughter I would be. Above all he no longer had the power to harden my heart. Because as my Fathers word says in Ezekiel 36:26 “ I will remove the heart of stone and replace it with the heart of flesh.” My heart is no longer hardened, it is no longer stone. I am no longer drowning
I now know how to love
I now know how to forgive
I now know how to serve
I now know how to fight against the enemy
And I know know my worth comes from my loving Heavenly Father
Whatever is in your closet that is too scary to face or is holding you from your true potential. Whatever you think keeps you bound to the person you used or the enemy has convinced you have become to be is nothing but paper chains. BREAK THEM.
YOU ARE FREE - JUST SURRENDER - BREAK THE CHAINS
Where is God calling you this season? What is he saying to you today?
His plans are to prosper you, never to harm you. Exercise your faith in him and trust that the path he has for you, is far better than the one you have for yourself. Trust me. His path for you may look steeper, longer, and more challenging than Satans. But Satan’s path is leading you straight to a cliff. He is blinding you. Tricking you. Deceiving you. Wake up. Turn around. Come back to Jesus.
The lords path is to eternal happiness. Die to your cardinal thinking, your flesh, your wants, and surrender today to Gods will for you. It will be the greatest thing you have ever done. I now have the answer and I hate that it took me so long to get here, but guess what? Better late than never! Lol God is doing something, you just have to let him do it. Trust in him, always. He is the way maker. The God of RESTORATION. The God who raised Lazarus from the DEAD. The very thing you think is too dead and broken beyond repair, He is saying. “Just trust me. This is nothing for me.” Faith as small as a mustard seed can move ANY mountain.
Trust him. Trust him. And Trust him some more.
My Dear kind and gracious loving boogie fighting Papa,
I love you. I love where you are calling me this season and I thank you for it. Your word says your plans are to prosper me never to harm me and you make that so evident daily. Thank you for removing what is not of you and what has held me back from the truest potential you have for me. Thank you for my community, my true people. Who have seen the darkness, the heaviness, and stayed... Never to judge or walk away. Lord, you have called me to bold in you this season. In starting a women's group I was afraid, but you have given me the strength. I am no group leader, just a woman/daughter being led. Nothing of me is self seeking, but all you. I continue to humble myself, but Lord if there are areas I need to more please do so. Please help me create balance in my personal/work life as well as this reader. My health has caught up to me again, but I know that you are bigger than a diagnosis. Your hands are for healing and I thank you immensely for this. I want to thank you for my daughter, I'm in tears even writing this. The last few days have been so hard and I have really gotten good at hiding it from her, however last night the pain consumed me and I laid in the bath for almost three hours. She didn't have to but she came and sat right next to me, bringing me water, and then did something that truly made me weep so much. She said with a boldness and fierceness in her a prayer of health and then commanded the enemy to leave my body. The way she prays, rebukes the enemy, and aims to serve is truly everything I have ever wanted for her. I didn't know how to ever get her to that point, but you did God. You told me, "it is through you, she will know him.. Be the example." I hope last night made you proud and I pray you protect her as well as all of our children from the schemes of the enemy. His plans may be big, but you are greater. Thank you Lord, for all you continue to bless me and this reader with. There is no coincidence they are reading this now. I know you are moving on their heart as you have mine. It is through You we are strengthened. I bind up the enemy off of their lives and command him in the name of Jesus to leave and never return. Continue to use me Father, so more know of you. I'm doing my absolute best to not let you down
I say this humbly in Jesus name,
Amen
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